September 2011
“So take me and break me. Make me strong like you.”
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People are always telling me that how I let my emotions rule me is a bad thing. I can’t see doing it any other way.
August 2011
Listen
And I’m crazy for tryin and crazy for cryin, and I’m crazy for lovin you
I’m being honest.
One of the only downsides to my job
is my job is to make people happy, yet I have no one to do that for me.
“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.”
— Lemony Snicket (via danseurs)
I'm gonna list the shit out of this list
that lists things about myself.
I like maybe three breeds of dogs and can’t stand the rest.
I have a job I love.
I pride myself on my education.
I don’t kill any living thing, even spiders.
I’m not a vegetarian.
I don’t follow a religion.
I don’t drink.
I don’t smoke.
I’m learning to roller skate.
I am hoping to and close to receiving a 4.0.
I think most of my peers are idiots.
I try not to judge them anyway.
I like to analyze movies, but seldom make time.
I don’t care for facial hair, depends on the person though.
I create arguments and counterarguments for every thought I have.
Except when I don’t care to.
I spend a bit of time alone and don’t know whether that’s by choice or not.
Acting is my favorite thing.
I may come off a bit of a crazy slut because of my humor, but that’s because I’m comfortable with my life choices despite what others think.
I am very neutral on many subjects.
Despite that my personality is always at extremes. It confuses normal people.
I have a lot more passion and life than the people that surround me.
It’s difficult for me to find a significant other who I believe can keep up with me.
I really don’t know why I’m writing this or who will read it.
I think all humans are hypocrites, even in our attempts not to be.
I like to think I’m pretty straightforward and honest. More so than the majority.
Anyone reading this can probably figure I don’t think much of my generation.
I make mean jokes.
I’m very independent, yet I feel like a lost five year old.
I enjoy Xbox.
I am a licensed driver.
I have honestly used my cats well being as a defense mechanism to suicidal thoughts.
I think everyone thinks they have some mental or physical disorder. It’s called being a human with feelings.
I don’t have a favorite musical artist.
I’m too lazy to wear make up most of the time.
I’m confident in myself at least 82% of the time.
I don’t have a best friend, although I’d like one.
Almost every sentence in this list starts with “I”.
I love grammar and spelling, but I realized it’s not how you say it or spell it, but it’s what you mean.
I try to find loopholes in everything because I like to be witty.
I have an improbable amount of goals that I don’t think I can accomplish in one life time.
I panic about death a minimum of once a day and I’m not sure if that’s healthy.
I can eat more than most people I know and pride myself on that.
I then kick myself for thinking eating 20 chicken nuggets and a fry in under five minutes is impressive. I guess it’s debatable.
The only thing I remember about the day my brother was born was eating corn nuts.
I spend more energy worrying about things than fixing them.
I don’t like energy drinks. Or coffee.
I enjoy performing in front of large groups of strangers.
Listing makes me feel productive.
